Matthew 6:33

Well well well ... so much for a return to blogging
Told u I wasnt the type who could sit down and just type away.

Its been a healthy yet eventful 5 months since my last post ( or only post)
I never did like the idea of blogging about just things that happen in my life or using my blog as a online diary.
I much rather come up with something meaningful and thought provoking.
But then again that's just me.

I was recently made to think about my life. And I realised how LOST I had become. I can't pinpoint exactly when my life began to lose its meaning. But nonetheless I realised that it had.
And what continues to surprise me is that I knew how to fix it. I knew how to get my life back on track again. But the funny thing about human nature is, we often take the hard way.

I knew that deep down I had backslidden from God. I had drifted away from how i should've lived my life. And yet everytime i thought about how my life was becoming more and more meaningless , i knew that i should just get on my knees and surrender it all. But I didnt. It is funny how human nature is, isn't it. How knowing perfectly well that putting God first was the way to go, i chose to do it my way, the wrong way.

And thus i began to seek stability in my life in all the wrong areas. And nothing did work or help. In fact, everything that i tried only turned out worse. But yet i kept trying, all while knowing that God was waitin for me to go back to him. All while knowing i was making a mistake not going to him. All while knowing that i can't possibly solve this by myself.

And yet there i was living my life without a purpose. I questioned what i was doing with my life. I questioned what the future held. I questioned what would become of me.

It took a moment of madness for me to realise that this aimless and purposeless life had to end. I realised what i had been missing out on in life.
And i finally gave in and surrendered. I gave up basically. Why was i continuing to find my own answers in life when God has them all. When he holds my future and my desires.

And just as how God promised he would never leave us, i was born again.
Amazing how God will always be there for us isnt it.

Since rededicating my life, I have found meaning again. And just as it is written :
"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you"

How true is this promise?
it is amazing how once u have set ur life straight with God he rewards you with gifts u could never imagine.
Indeed this verse will become a pillar in my life and hopefully also to whomever reads this.


Not forgetting those who were with me through these tough times with words of encouragement and wisdom.
My friends whom i call brothers and sisters and of course my family for standing by me.

So guess what? I'm back and i'm loving this new lease of life.
Thank God for his promises, his gifts and his never ending faithfulness.