After close to year of hiatus, there's finally something to read about.
Hence a new blog, a new start. There's no guarantee that this will last either. But why not give it a shot right?
Talk about a long time. So many things happen in a year. New experiences, exciting adventures, bold moves, big saves and of course all the dumb-ass screw ups. Indeed the year had its highs and lows.
Many a time i ask myself whether i made the right the choices, whether i took the right path, could things have turned out even better. Yet i wonder if i did indeed make the right choices. I wouldn’t use the word COULD as the fact is i COULD have but rather SHOULD i have.
Should i have pushed harder?
Should i have even tried?
Should i have made more effort?
Should i have bothered?
Should i have chased further?
Should i have even started the race?
Should i ……
The list could go on. How many times are we faced with a choice to make? i find myself asking if i did make right choices.
Could i have been better off if i had taken the other path?
Do i even want to know how it could have turned out?
Could it have turned out like a movie?
Where the lead gets the girl and lives happily ever after.
Where i stumble upon a windfall.
Indeed where i am now is the result of my choices.
Do i regret them? Maybe.
The truth for us all is that we’ll never know how it would’ve turned out had we gone the other way.
Maybe i would’ve got the girl, stumbled upon gold, found my way and found myself. That’s a huge maybe.
BUT what if i did make the right choices? That what i have before me is what’s best for me.
But am i happy with where i am? Is this it? Who should i be comparing my happiness with?
Is it the children and families stricken with poverty, who struggle to bring food to the table?
Is it the rich and famous that live in mansions and shower themselves with luxury?
If happiness were a scale, wouldn’t i be right down the center?
Wouldn’t i be happier if i could have all my wants and desires? Would you not?
Do we not tend to look at things from a perspective such that things could always be better?
To us the grass is always greener on the other side.
Maybe i should be thankful for what i have now? Not everyone could be where i am. So was i being selfish in my desire for greater things? Is it not true that i am already so blessed? With parents who sacrificed so much for me. They valued me higher than money itself. They invested in a future so uncertain and so volatile. Were they not brave and wise to make such a choice? I should be happy indeed that they have given their all for me. I could only hope that when my time comes to make such decisions, i have that wisdom and vision that they have.
But have I? All this time have i been wise with my decisions? Indeed i do hope things turned out differently. I certainly didn’t get the girl nor did i stumble upon that treasure. But yet i can’t help but think that i did find something else. Something that probably carries more importance.
